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[20 Jun 2004|10:15pm]

everything is THE KINGDOM.

ohhh lars von trier.
4 girls push girls.

[11 Jun 2004|07:48pm]
too bad i haven't updated in two months!

i am doing SO GOOD.

i started working and got told i look like i am 12 three times in two days! cool!

real life is better.
i have a lot of pictures!
and a book about dance in french.

good enough.
4 girls push girls.

[15 Apr 2004|08:26pm]
the only dreams i have been having are ones i can't figure out if they were real or not, and nightmares.
everyday there is something i am sure happened that didn't.
and this afternoon i drempt i wrecked my car.

i dont know it is just sad i guess. i dont know if it is important.

ok there it is.
this is not it.
3 girls push girls.

[14 Apr 2004|10:14pm]
theres this song.
and i used to think it went:

one two one two
put it together
one two fall apart.

but it doesnt.
push girls.

i am watercolor. i wash off. [24 Mar 2004|08:04pm]
i cant stop reading anne sexton.

i am excited about the mockumentary, but otherwise i am always just really really bored.
3 girls push girls.

[14 Mar 2004|09:59pm]
today i rediscovered the masterpiece.Collapse )
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[09 Mar 2004|07:52pm]
i think i am upset by the fact that i just feel like talking to christopher but too bad! the phoneline is broken again! and it didn't even rain. [maybe it is a good thing we are moving.]

i had something else to write. i thought.
oh yeah. i think i saw rory calhoun on a ut shuttle bus today. but i am not positive. it could have been an imposter, but eitherway, i guess i dont really care anymore.

i am wearing white leather gloves from the 20s and i feel a little classy.

last night i only slept one and a half hours even though i went to bed at ten thirty. i kept waking myself up because i didnt want to dream about cars or numbers. the same thing happened when i was seven except i was trying not to dream about skeletons because it scared me. too bad i would much rather dream of skeletons than cars and numbers.

today i did not talk very much. and it was easier than making up things to say to people i didnt want to talk to.

oh boring.
push girls.

[06 Mar 2004|08:50pm]
[ mood | hey ]

my mom and i bought two paintings by this guy chad, who i see everywhere today. i am in love with his art and i dont even know why. i am too lazy to take pictures of the ones we bought, and they are not on that site, but look at the other ones anyway. they are good.

and update: finding a car still sucks.
goal: before spring break. can i do it?
probably not.
but hope.

please tell me about your favorite artist (it's ok if it's yourself).

7 girls push girls.

[03 Mar 2004|09:49pm]

why'd you have to make it so complicated; can't it just be beautiful?

i am upset.
firstly because i don't think i can write. and if there is anything i want to be good at it is that.
it seems stupid that the thing i am having the hardest time with is the development of myself as a character in the story.
maybe i don't want to figure myself out. i dont think i need to.

secondly and thirdly. nope.

hey noah!Collapse )
2 girls push girls.

WHAT IS IT? ohhh...baby it's you! [28 Feb 2004|05:07pm]
[ mood | imlivininthefuture ]

so i am moving houses over spring break.
and the thing i am going to miss most about my room here is this spider.

he only has 5 legs and all but one are on that one side. it's really sad, and funny. he walks like a pirate. and has a web near my bed. he is just so good to me.

buying a car is the worst thing ever.
especially with my mom. she expects me to do everything even though i have no idea what i am doing. she is like go look at cars but what am i going to look at! i dont know how to tell if cars are good or crappy. all cars look good to me.
she got mad at me today because i couldnt find consumer reports at the library so i read graphology books instead. but really. what is more interesting.
i really am motivated.
i am just put off.

also. i finally cut all my hair off.
it is really thick i wouldnt have known.
it's weird to see myself in reflections in windows and things i am always like "wait who is that! ...oh yeah me."
see for yourself if you want.Collapse )

2 girls push girls.

[22 Feb 2004|12:37am]
[ mood | i dont know. ]

i am sick of swallowing. and pissing people off on accident.
i am sick of waiting get over it.

i am not however, sick of this song.

i sold my car today.
so step two i guess is find a new car. and i guess i am doing that and reading 100 pages tomorrow.

i cant write anything that doesnt sound stupid.
i lost my grip.
that doesnt sound and eloquent as i am losing my grip. i am against the past tense. what was there isn't nearly as important as what is there. i guess.

i am going to cut all my hair off and get a car and move houses all soon. maybe i will be a different person and then nothing will really matter.
like madonna!
ok sorry.
i suck.

4 girls push girls.

(almost?) done. [21 Feb 2004|02:23am]
[ mood | weaklonelybadandbad ]

it seems it doesn't make a difference that we're sorry all the time.

2 girls push girls.

[18 Feb 2004|06:38pm]
i am so dumb. somehow in the process of getting my waffles out of the toasteroven i caught myself on fire!
my sleeve anyway. and i burned my hand and the burn is black.
and all i can do is laugh at how dumb i am.
9 girls push girls.

[15 Feb 2004|09:41pm]
[ mood | spit spat whats that! ]

at the carnival there was a mexican cowboy with an eyepatch.
but my camera ran out of batteries ahh.
all the rides were like $3 and so we didnt ride the FREAKOUT because we only had about $7 between all of us.

FREAK OUT!Collapse )

1 girl push girls.

[04 Feb 2004|09:04pm]
good thing reid also likes looking at haunted items for sale.
because otherwise
i dont think i would have any friends.

i do not feel like packing or doing physics.

yesterday or wait monday, at goodwill i bought tapes and then remembered that i dont think i even have a working tape player. so i dont know what i was thinking. but one of them is DINOSAUR SONGS. ok. boring.
this is why i dont use this much ever!

ok it is not haunted
but for sale yes, that is true.
and i need to sell it quick! or else i can't get a replacement one!
so if you know anyone who needs a car:

5 speed
darkgrayblue with light blue interior!
and it is all clean!
and the seats are striped!
electric windows and mirrors.
seriously, i love this car.
$1700! good deal!

other people even like it!

christopher says:
"your car is fast!
did i say fast"

but for real, tell your friends.
maybe i will take a picture when it is not dark outside.

ok sorry for trying to sell a car i am just sad about it. that's all.
1 girl push girls.

[30 Jan 2004|03:05pm]
South African police are looking for a man who released several poisonous snakes at a bank in a revenge attack after his car was repossessed.

this guy is my new hero.
2 girls push girls.

[28 Jan 2004|10:30pm]
spywars: i really think i am winning.Collapse )

also, we spied on rory calhoun today.
which was kindof weird. and dissapointing. he is just boring.
and there was this weird terribly flamboyant guy who we saw wearing like three different outfits, but i dont think i saw him leave the room.

spy mission: accomplished.Collapse )

i need someone new to spy on.
i need someone to give me good books...erin.
9 girls push girls.

[25 Jan 2004|09:47pm]
[ mood | ok. ]

ok ok
well. on thursday rory calhoun talked about me on his radio show! he said my name twice and then i was happy for a whole day.
and kvrx is having a meeting anyone-can-come thing on wednesday and steven and i are going to go and i am going to convince rory calhoun to let me host his show with him. there are only 15 or so left! oh no.

in sad news, my car is going to be so much money to fix because the coil is broken and they don't make them anymore and so we have to sell it back! and get a different car and that makes me cry so much.
i miss you, vanessa from queens.

i keep having really creepy dreams about being in relationships with gross gross people. but i did have a good jurassic park dream and dinosaurs were killing everyone!

in art i have made two paintings that i like (for now) and that is good i think.

uhm.Collapse )

two weeks is way too long!
sorry it just is.

6 girls push girls.

[21 Jan 2004|11:53pm]
coachella festival tickets are $75 per day and $140 for both days.
that is a lot of money.
1 girl push girls.

anditallgoesdownhillfromthere. [20 Jan 2004|07:08pm]
i am sick of the good things messing up.

today, my car, which i have had for 3 days, decided it's not going to start!
i was practicing driving, and i was doing well, and then i stalled ONCE and then it wouldn't start again.
my stepdad says it sounds like the engine isn't getting any gas.
it also sounds like today was the worst day ever.
and it sounds like i'll be crying forever because my car has to spend the night in a parkinglot of a church, and tomorrow is wednesday and people go to church on wednesdays and they will probably spit on my car and break into it and steal all the stuff that isn't in there.

i think maybe my car hates me.
something hates me anyway.

the only good part of today was reading ghost stories from reid's british sam sent ghostbook. i especially liked the one about the mummified foot in a box.

which reminds me, i also have no money to fix my car.
12 girls push girls.

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